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I have been feeling sorry for myself since June, maybe earlier. I have not been willing to address what is bothering me. I guess until now, Thanksgiving of all times, ironic much? Maybe it is just that I know I am hitting those magic years of menopause. I cry now for no real reason. That’s a new feeling for me. Almost like passing gas but I get no relief. Some days I feel like a gigantic sack of nonspecific, unwanted sorrow. I have been withdrawn, moody and aggravated. If a were a six year old I would have been given a nap and pep talk but I am not six. I always come to the same spot in my journey. I can’t seem to get over this bump in the road. I WON’T allow myself to go over the bump. This path I am struggling to follow would be a lot easier if I would just hear that tiny voice in my soul that says, “you’ve got this. Believe in who you are!” I was watching a movie the other day, Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief, and it got me thinking. I couldn’t help but feel maybe dieting is like this story line. I have allowed things in my life to steal my lightning. Maybe I have let too many things keep me from my goals. All it takes is one Lotus flower, or something else equally distracting and I leave my path. So I have been asking myself why? Why do I keep avoiding myself?
The thing is I want to be healthy not tiny. I have spent most of my adult years chasing some ideal I don’t really need or want. I hate to say this, but you know I am going to, I think I finally figured out how to be better to myself; by just DOING IT. I need to eat healthier for me not some bullshit ideal I have let fester in my mind all these years. I am not embarrassed my by size. The lies I have told myself repeatedly over the years are just that lies. Things like,” you are unlikely to succeed or I won’t ever be happy or loved or”… a million other peace stealing notions. The time has come for me to just be satisfied with the person I know I am, because I am okay just the way I am.
Never Give Up On The Person You Are Meant To BE !!
notsolargemarge 
You can do it
I just wanted to say thanks for your encouraging words. I sometimes let things get far out in front of me. How are things with your Mom? Settled down a bit I hope. I read your blog post about Australia and the marriage equality vote. Love is love is love… and it should be embraced and celebrated and treasured.
You’re welcome. Yes, Mum seems settled for the moment, as we have carers going in twice a day at lunch & dinner time to check on her- the peace of mind is fabulous, although it is only a short term solution. And YES, how wonderful that so many regular people now [hopefully soon] will have the chance to get married (not my cuppa tea, but we should all be equal)- we just have to make it law. Already they are predicting a huge boom in weddings… a smart friend of mine has just launched her ‘Queer Wedding Planner’ business! Love to you, G